WOW!

its going to be almost two months now...my cuddlywuddly and me...and its been awesome!
i know i haven't recorded anything like for almost more than a month now...
but its been wonderful...with the play and seeing my cuddlywuddly almost everyday and spending so much time with him and going places...its been incredible!
i've learnt a lot too...but there is still one thing i don't think i will ever get over and thats about HER!...the ex-girlfriend...
i can be so touchy about her i think it bugs him ... wish i could not be like that and be tolerant...but URGH! she gets my blood boiling! i dont know why she gets to me so much...she makes me feel very insecure that i know...
but the thing is i know he loves me now...but maybe its because of everything they had and probably the connection and all that crap...that is what is so weird ...and the fact that they are friends...and good friends at that!
its scary...i know he won't leave me for her...but STILL...its this naggy feeling at the back of my head...when it comes to her...i guess i feel threatened by her!
YUCKY ain't it!
anyways...moving on!
today me and my cuddlywuddly did something i've always wanted to do...
we went out for coffee at night! went to deli france...and hmmmmmmmmm...........it was nice to just sit there, beside my cuddlywuddly and sip yummy coffee :)
hmmmmmmmmmmm....................i L O V E him!